I'm in so much pain.
Yes, you may not want to read this, but I got my period last night and it's horrible! I have the worst periods and right now the cramps are unbearable. Dennis is the best boyfriend ever. He keeps offering to get me anything and is just amazing.
I love him so much.
<3
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Every Dead Thing by: John Connolly
Eadem mutata resurgo.
(Though changed, I shall arise the same.)
Epitaph of Jakob Bernoulli,
Swiss pioneer of fluid dynamics
and spiral mathematics
(Though changed, I shall arise the same.)
Epitaph of Jakob Bernoulli,
Swiss pioneer of fluid dynamics
and spiral mathematics
Thursday, September 16, 2010
I Can't Wait For This Week To Be Over!
This week has officially been horrible!
Monday was just the worst day ever! Nothing went right! I should have just stayed in bed and not gotten up at all until the next day. Maybe that would have helped. From the time I woke up, around 6ish, to the time I went back to sleep everything that could happen did! Dennis and I got into a huge fight. I know it sounds selfish and childish, but sometimes I really feel as if he doesn't look at us as equals. He is better than me and I'm below him and nothing I do is the right way. I know that's not true, but sometimes that's how I feel. He completely took over the fish tank. The tank's mine, the fish are mine, but he doesn't act like it. I realize now that yes, he's just very excited by it and thinks its amazing, but still!
We had a huge discussion about everything. It helped tremendously. I think things will go much easier and better now. We shall see. I told him how I feel about us being equal, about the fish tank, and about my mood swings. I also mentioned about how moving things into his closet truly is one of the more terrifying things I've ever had to do. I just can't help it though, I have commitment issues that I'm trying my hardest to work on. He makes me so happy, but like any relationship it takes work.
I love how he makes me feel sometimes. It's like no one else in the world matters, that I truly am beautiful, and that we really will end up the happiest old couple of all time. But, sometimes I really do feel that he's not completely mine. I know it's not true, but I can't help but feel like his ex still has him slightly. He tells me otherwise, but I still have that feeling. I know they talk, which is fine, I told him I wanted him to. But, still, something just eats at me about the whole thing. Of course, I won't tell him that. I just want him to be happy. I would do anything in the world for him. He truly is my life, my world, my everything.
That's all for now I guess.
Off to class.
Monday was just the worst day ever! Nothing went right! I should have just stayed in bed and not gotten up at all until the next day. Maybe that would have helped. From the time I woke up, around 6ish, to the time I went back to sleep everything that could happen did! Dennis and I got into a huge fight. I know it sounds selfish and childish, but sometimes I really feel as if he doesn't look at us as equals. He is better than me and I'm below him and nothing I do is the right way. I know that's not true, but sometimes that's how I feel. He completely took over the fish tank. The tank's mine, the fish are mine, but he doesn't act like it. I realize now that yes, he's just very excited by it and thinks its amazing, but still!
We had a huge discussion about everything. It helped tremendously. I think things will go much easier and better now. We shall see. I told him how I feel about us being equal, about the fish tank, and about my mood swings. I also mentioned about how moving things into his closet truly is one of the more terrifying things I've ever had to do. I just can't help it though, I have commitment issues that I'm trying my hardest to work on. He makes me so happy, but like any relationship it takes work.
I love how he makes me feel sometimes. It's like no one else in the world matters, that I truly am beautiful, and that we really will end up the happiest old couple of all time. But, sometimes I really do feel that he's not completely mine. I know it's not true, but I can't help but feel like his ex still has him slightly. He tells me otherwise, but I still have that feeling. I know they talk, which is fine, I told him I wanted him to. But, still, something just eats at me about the whole thing. Of course, I won't tell him that. I just want him to be happy. I would do anything in the world for him. He truly is my life, my world, my everything.
That's all for now I guess.
Off to class.
Friday, September 10, 2010
I Think Hell Just Froze Over
The unthinkable just happened.
I have spent every night since last Friday over at Dennis' house. That's a whole week. I've been almost waiting for my mom to say something about it and she hasn't. Today I was talking to her online and she even suggested we move my bigger bed into his room. She's completely alright with it! She told me that she's not going to tell me what to do! I almost can't believe it. I'm so happy right now.
That's pretty much all I wanted to mention right now. Oh, and that I'm thinking of creating another blog of all book reviews since I read so much. We shall see.
Have a great day!
I have spent every night since last Friday over at Dennis' house. That's a whole week. I've been almost waiting for my mom to say something about it and she hasn't. Today I was talking to her online and she even suggested we move my bigger bed into his room. She's completely alright with it! She told me that she's not going to tell me what to do! I almost can't believe it. I'm so happy right now.
That's pretty much all I wanted to mention right now. Oh, and that I'm thinking of creating another blog of all book reviews since I read so much. We shall see.
Have a great day!
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
I Am So In Love
Dennis is just too good to me.
This weekend has been hell. I've felt horrible since probably Thursday or Friday. My allergies have just been horrible. Dennis is the sweetest person ever! He has been spoiling me rotten so horribly. He has gotten me another tissue box after I already used up two of their boxes already! He brought me coffee and breakfast, and ran out to my car for me. He didn't mind touching my nasty, snotty tissues. He even put a new pillowcase on his pillow for me because he wanted me to sleep over so badly! I felt bad because I didn't want to get his pillowcase all gross because my nose was so stuffed. I was going to go home and get my own pillowcase gross, but he actually found another one for me! I've spent every night over there since Friday! I practically live there! I love waking up to him lying next to me. He makes my day start off great just by being the first thing I see when I wake up in the morning. He's my everything.
For Labor Day, Dennis' sister and brother-in-law that live in South Carolina came up as a surprise! No one expected it. Dennis' mom even cried when she hugged the two grandchildren! It was so amazing. His Grandma also came over for Labor Day and we found out that she lives next to my Grandparents! Everyone absolutely loved me. I was so happy to find this out because I really wanted his family to like me and accept me. It means a lot to me that my boyfriend and my friends get along and that my boyfriends' family likes me. His mom tells me all the time that I am officially "part of the family now". I really see this going far.
Dennis' new kitten, George, is getting fixed today. He's also having his front paws declawed today. He's such a cute kitten. Everyone loves George, he has such a personality! He loves to be around people and is very inquisitive. I really hope everything goes alright.
Last night Dennis bought us crab legs and we cooked them up! They were so good. I really wish I could think of something huge to work towards getting him. He means so much and I just feel like I can't do enough to show him how much I care for him and how I feel about him. I know he knows I love him, but I'm not sure he knows exactly how much. He says he does, but I'm not sure.
Well, I guess that's about all.
Have a great day!
This weekend has been hell. I've felt horrible since probably Thursday or Friday. My allergies have just been horrible. Dennis is the sweetest person ever! He has been spoiling me rotten so horribly. He has gotten me another tissue box after I already used up two of their boxes already! He brought me coffee and breakfast, and ran out to my car for me. He didn't mind touching my nasty, snotty tissues. He even put a new pillowcase on his pillow for me because he wanted me to sleep over so badly! I felt bad because I didn't want to get his pillowcase all gross because my nose was so stuffed. I was going to go home and get my own pillowcase gross, but he actually found another one for me! I've spent every night over there since Friday! I practically live there! I love waking up to him lying next to me. He makes my day start off great just by being the first thing I see when I wake up in the morning. He's my everything.
For Labor Day, Dennis' sister and brother-in-law that live in South Carolina came up as a surprise! No one expected it. Dennis' mom even cried when she hugged the two grandchildren! It was so amazing. His Grandma also came over for Labor Day and we found out that she lives next to my Grandparents! Everyone absolutely loved me. I was so happy to find this out because I really wanted his family to like me and accept me. It means a lot to me that my boyfriend and my friends get along and that my boyfriends' family likes me. His mom tells me all the time that I am officially "part of the family now". I really see this going far.
Dennis' new kitten, George, is getting fixed today. He's also having his front paws declawed today. He's such a cute kitten. Everyone loves George, he has such a personality! He loves to be around people and is very inquisitive. I really hope everything goes alright.
Last night Dennis bought us crab legs and we cooked them up! They were so good. I really wish I could think of something huge to work towards getting him. He means so much and I just feel like I can't do enough to show him how much I care for him and how I feel about him. I know he knows I love him, but I'm not sure he knows exactly how much. He says he does, but I'm not sure.
Well, I guess that's about all.
Have a great day!
Friday, September 3, 2010
Wow, This Day Had Better Get Better
Today is already so horrible.
Not even before 10a and I already locked my keys in my car. I had to call AAA to have someone come and unlock my car for me so that I could get in. Thank Darwin I have AAA Gold. I'm exhausted. Dennis and I went to Denny's last night and he even paid for me! We went back to his house and I ended up spending the night over there. I had to get up at 6:30a to leave and get to school on time. I was falling asleep in English class! And to think, the day isn't even half over yet!
Dennis really is so sweet though. I'm so lucky to have him. I really don't know what I would do without him. I love him so much. Last night he was so thoughtful and kind. He was willing to give up his own bed and sleep on the floor for me! I ended up down on the floor with him. I told him he didn't have to, it's his bed! But, he insisted. So, I got down and slept with him on the floor. October will be six months that we've been dating. It doesn't seem like it! Time is really flying.
Dennis is going to go look at a truck that he's interested in today. I hope it goes well. He found a full bed, red pick up truck on craigslist. It looks nice. Unfortunately, I can't go with him to see it and test drive it with him because I have class. But, I told him to let me know how it goes. I just want him happy, and I know he will be if he gets this truck. Only down side is, because it's a V8, it is going to take a LOT of gas. Whatever makes him happy, makes me happy.
Off to class.
Ta-ta.
Not even before 10a and I already locked my keys in my car. I had to call AAA to have someone come and unlock my car for me so that I could get in. Thank Darwin I have AAA Gold. I'm exhausted. Dennis and I went to Denny's last night and he even paid for me! We went back to his house and I ended up spending the night over there. I had to get up at 6:30a to leave and get to school on time. I was falling asleep in English class! And to think, the day isn't even half over yet!
Dennis really is so sweet though. I'm so lucky to have him. I really don't know what I would do without him. I love him so much. Last night he was so thoughtful and kind. He was willing to give up his own bed and sleep on the floor for me! I ended up down on the floor with him. I told him he didn't have to, it's his bed! But, he insisted. So, I got down and slept with him on the floor. October will be six months that we've been dating. It doesn't seem like it! Time is really flying.
Dennis is going to go look at a truck that he's interested in today. I hope it goes well. He found a full bed, red pick up truck on craigslist. It looks nice. Unfortunately, I can't go with him to see it and test drive it with him because I have class. But, I told him to let me know how it goes. I just want him happy, and I know he will be if he gets this truck. Only down side is, because it's a V8, it is going to take a LOT of gas. Whatever makes him happy, makes me happy.
Off to class.
Ta-ta.
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