Ahh!

Yeah, it's tomorrow!

I'm dying my hair now for tomorrow, so that it's all done and taken care of.  That will at least one less thing I will have to worry about.  I'm seriously freaking out.  It's really getting down to the wire now.  My cousin, Andrea, helped dye my hair and is doing her toenails now.  Fifteen more minutes and I can wash this shit out!

So, we were finally able to have sex one last time before we're married.  I have been on my period for the last week and a half.  Our sex life has been dull because of it.  But, it was amazing.  I think not having sex for the week and a half really helped because this was earth shattering, mind blowing, oh my fuck great.  Tomorrow will be our first time as a married couple.  Again, ahhh!

Well, I guess that's about all.
Wish me luck!
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Stress?

I think the stress of everything is getting to me.

I got sick at work today and had to come home.  I hope that I'm not getting sick because I can't afford to get sick right now.  I think it's just stress because of the house and wedding and everything.  The wedding is officially two days away...crunch time baby!  And, I'm meeting with the mortgage agent Tuesday before my neurologist appointment.

My cousin, and witness, Andrea finally came home from school in Kansas.  I missed her so much.  We may have a bonfire tonight to hang out and just have a great time.  I took her by the house and she loves it. Ahh, I can't believe all of this is happening to me!

Well, off to take a nap.
Nighty-night.
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Home Inspection

Well, we had the home inspection done on the house we're looking at.

It went amazing!  The inspector said that there are six components to a house, and it passed all of them!  There were some minor things, of course.  But, some of them the sellers are going to take care of.  Which house doesn't have some minor cosmetic things?  I'm so freaking out!

The wedding is less than a week ago!  Ahh!  All the small things are starting to come together and it is starting to sink in.  Everything is becoming so real.

Well, off to work I guess.
Have a nice day.
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Okay, I Have An Excuse

Yes, I know.  It has been forever, but I have a great excuse.

I'm getting married!!  Yes, married!  July 3rd of 2011 will be my wedding day.  It's just a small ceremony, nothing huge.  We are going to have him and I, a Judge, our parents, and our two witnesses.  A total of nine people, if you include the Judge.  I'm having my cousin, Andrea, as my witness and he is having his friend, Kevin, as his.  I honestly can't believe it myself.  I'm freaking out!  I got a nice informal short wedding dress and he got a gorgeous suit to wear.  I can't wait to get my website up so that I can post all the pictures on there for everyone to see!  Believe me, Facebook will have them!

On top of the wedding, I'm buying a house!  Yes, we are buying a house.  Can you say stress?!  It's gorgeous.  It's three bedroom with two bathroom.  It has a second floor as well as a porch in front and a deck in the back.  It also has a fenced in yard!  The home inspection is on Tuesday, so pictures will be available after that.  I honestly can't believe that all this is happening to me.  I am so fortunate to have found the one that I'm going to spend the rest of my life with and to find the house we're going to spend it in together is crazy.  I'm so young for all of this to be happening!

I honestly don't even know how to react to all of this.
So, that is all I'm going to say for now.
I will keep you updated with all the news going forward.
I promise.

Good night.
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What A Way To Wake Up

To say the least, it is windy out.  Very, very windy.

There is a tree that is just beyond the fence separating our house from our neighbor that has been uprooted and fallen.  It tore down two sections of the fence and uprooted part of our garden.  This was a huge, healthy tree.  I think it's going to be a little blustery out today.

Hope everyone stays safe!
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Spreading The Great News Some More

I love telling people!

We went to see my Grandparents today.  Ironically enough, these Grandparents of mine live right next to his Grandmother.  We went over there to see how their Easter went and to let them know the great news.  They are such nice people.  I never want to see them go!  Before we went over to see them we went out to eat at our favorite little restaurant.  We try to go any morning we can!  It's just a little restaurant called Knead the Dough.  They have amazing food there.  We told our favorite waiter the great news as well.

Yesterday, I stayed home from work.  I ended up having to get out of the shower to throw up that morning.  I had taken some medicine for my stomach and felt like even that was going to come up.  I called both of my Supervisors and told them how I was feeling.  They told me to stay home.  It was horrible.

I am in the process of making my own website.  Well, let me rephrase that.  Dennis is helping me be in the process of making my own website.  We are trying to get everything set up now.  This way once I'm ready for my real website name everything will be ready.

Well, that seems to be all at the moment.
Good night to you all.
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Wow, Today Wasn't Much Better

I feel like shit.

Last night I slept horribly.  Have you ever had that one bad dream that you just can't seem to shake?  Well, I remembered mine last night.  I just seem to randomly have it sometimes.  It's that one dream that makes you not want to go to sleep the following night, for fear of having the dream again.  I feel so restless right now.

Work went just as horribly as last night did.  We have a thing called personal time.  Basically, if you have to go to the bathroom, and can't wait until break, you sign out personal.  I never use my personal time.  Today, I had to sign out personal to go to the bathroom because I felt so sick.  My stomach just seems so torn up and I'm not sure why.  After I went to the bathroom and got sick, I felt much better and my day went pretty well.

Dennis went out with his friends while I was at work.  I'm glad he got out and had some fun.  I realize this is going to sound completely selfish, but the one thing I missed with him hanging out with his friends was the phone call.  On my way home from work pretty much every night we talk on the phone until I get home.  I called him tonight, but he didn't answer.  I know, I know.  I can't help but be a little selfish when I'm used to having him all to myself though, can I?  I'm not mad about it or anything, I just missed it.

But, everything's fine now.  We're both just hanging out.  He's honestly the one person I feel most comfortable with just being myself.  I love just laying with him and doing nothing.  With him, nothing feels like everything.

Well, off to bed I go then.
We shall see how my night goes.
Until then, good night and sleep well.
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What A Shitty Day

Yes, it is Easter.

However, Easter is apparently not a holiday seeing how I have to go into work later.  That is one thing I don't understand.  Why is Christmas viewed as a holiday, but not Easter?  They are almost exactly the same.  They both come from religious backgrounds and have become so commercialized that it's almost hilarious.  Easter is the rising of Jesus and Christmas is the birth of Jesus.  Both originating from religion, yet not equal.  Easter has a commercialized idol of the Easter Bunny and Christmas has Santa Claus.  Both also have gifts exchanged.  Yes, Christmas you get presents under the tree, but Easter you get a basket hidden.  Are they both not gifts?  The fact of the matter is, if one is viewed as a holiday, so should the other.  Just out of simple respect.  How is it that you are allowed to recognize one religious act, but not another?  Don't get me wrong, I don't believe in the religion, but that doesn't mean that I don't have knowledge about it.  I respect every belief, as long as mine is respected as well.  Out of pure respect for other views on religion, should Easter really not be viewed?

I guess there is one good thing to this day though.

Dennis was able to find his wallet this morning.  It was hidden in his dresser drawer, stuck between the drawer and the dresser.  Almost as if it were about to fall behind the drawer.  I'm so glad he was able to find it.

Well, I suppose that is all for now.
I shall be back later.
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Well, That Was Easier Than I Had Expected

We told Dennis' family our great news.

It actually went very well.  They all seemed very happy for us.  His Grandma lives right next to my Grandparents, and seemed very thrilled.  I was a nervous wreck when we were telling them.  I hate being the center of attention and telling his family definitely put me on the spot.  They of course wanted to know the story.  It was so nice having everyone together once again.

Unfortunately, I feel horrible right now.

Basically, I'm having one of my fat depressions right now.  If only there was a way to get exercise in a fun way.  I am not a runner or anything like that.  The only exercise I'm interested in is swimming, horseback riding, and sex.  In all seriousness, that is great exercise.  I sometimes wish it was possible to just get your exercise and lose a lot of weight by having a lot of sex.  Eh, I shall dream on some more.

Not only am I having a weight depression right now, but Dennis lost his wallet.  This wallet was his deceased Grandfathers' wallet and had over $200 in it, as well as all of his cards and I.D.  We tore apart the whole house and all of the vehicles.  I have no idea where it could be.

Hm, it seems like that is all for now.
I shall return tomorrow.  For now, good night.
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Yes, It Has Been Awhile

I have been a very busy person.  But, I have great news.

I am still working at GEICO.  I am currently at the last stage of transition.  After this, I will become certified and become a full service agent.  I'm doing very well so far.

As far as my home life goes, a lot of things have been happening.

Dennis proposed to me!  He asked me Tuesday 04/19/2011.  We were talking while sitting on the bed and he told me, "I have something to tell you."  I told him that he could tell me anything and I could see him taking a moment or two to get his thoughts in order.  He suddenly grabbed my ring, got down on one knee, and said "You're my best friend and I never want to lose you.  You're going to make a great  mother and a great wife one day.  I love you so much and I want to spend the rest of my life with you.  I want you to be my wife, so will you marry me?"  To say the least, I was hysterical.  I even asked, "are you serious?!"  before saying yes.

He makes me so happy and is my whole world.  We are telling the rest of his family tonight.  We shall see how it goes.  It has been a very interesting ride so far.

I am determined to start writing here again.
So, I will be back with the reaction of his family later.

Until then, have a great rest of your day!
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Finally, A Chance To Breathe!

Yes, I know.  Neglect major!

I started school again and am still going to work at GEICO.  I gave blood the other day at work.  I think it was a bad idea.  I ended up passing out at work last night.  I was okay, but still.  When I came back from the nurse I got to go to the "Carnival" themed room and I won about 8 fish!

I know it's not a lot, but that is all I can think of right now.  I'll be posting again soon!

I'm sorry.
Until then, have a good day!
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