I Can't Wait For This Week To Be Over!

This week has officially been horrible!

Monday was just the worst day ever!  Nothing went right!  I should have just stayed in bed and not gotten up at all until the next day.  Maybe that would have helped.  From the time I woke up, around 6ish, to the time I went back to sleep everything that could happen did!  Dennis and I got into a huge fight.  I know it sounds selfish and childish, but sometimes I really feel as if he doesn't look at us as equals.  He is better than me and I'm below him and nothing I do is the right way.  I know that's not true, but sometimes that's how I feel.  He completely took over the fish tank.  The tank's mine, the fish are mine, but he doesn't act like it.  I realize now that yes, he's just very excited by it and thinks its amazing, but still!

We had a huge discussion about everything.  It helped tremendously.  I think things will go much easier and better now.  We shall see.  I told him how I feel about us being equal, about the fish tank, and about my mood swings.  I also mentioned about how moving things into his closet truly is one of the more terrifying things I've ever had to do.  I just can't help it though, I have commitment issues that I'm trying my hardest to work on.  He makes me so happy, but like any relationship it takes work. 

I love how he makes me feel sometimes.  It's like no one else in the world matters, that I truly am beautiful, and that we really will end up the happiest old couple of all time.  But, sometimes I really do feel that he's not completely mine.  I know it's not true, but I can't help but feel like his ex still has him slightly.  He tells me otherwise, but I still have that feeling.  I know they talk, which is fine, I told him I wanted him to.  But, still, something just eats at me about the whole thing.  Of course, I won't tell him that.  I just want him to be happy.  I would do anything in the world for him.  He truly is my life, my world, my everything.

That's all for now I guess.
Off to class.