So Many Emotions

I'm not even sure how to feel anymore.

I'm still slightly pissed off because of earlier.  Today, my college had all of the Freshmen clean up the neighborhood a bit.  My class was supposed to dig up some dead trees.  I was so looking forward to helping out and doing good.  The instructor almost wouldn't even let me carry a shovel, let alone dig out the tree!  I wanted to dig so bad, and I never got to.  So, after digging up the trees, we had to pick up garbage on the side of the roads and sidewalks.  I was more than willing, especially since we had gloves.  My other instructor had told me and about four other people to walk along a certain road and pick up garbage for about a half hour and then we could be done.  It's only a half hour!  As soon as we were out of earshot of my instructor, one of the others in the group turned to us and said, "You know we don't have to do this for a full half hour."  I couldn't believe it!  I was like, "Well, I think I'm going to anyways."  Because I was actually stopping to pick up trash that I was passing, I naturally fell behind the group.  They had garbage bags and were supposed to be picking up the trash as they went along.  They didn't pick up anything!  My being behind them would have caused there to be nothing for me to pick up, but there was just as much because they weren't picking anything up!  I was just so amazed at the negative attitude towards cleaning up.

I am extremely nervous about tomorrow.  I have my third and final interview that last two hours at 2p.  Everyone keeps telling me that I'll do fine, but I can't help being nervous.  I have to spend the first hour shadowing someone who has the job that I am applying for.  After that, the second hour is spent with the supervisors of the department.  That's so much time!  I really hope I can last that long without saying something damning.  I guess all I can do is wait and see.

I think that is all, for now.
Wish me luck!
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